A belated apology:

I just want to apologise for everything that I may have done to offend or hurt you in 2009. I know I have said and done some really awful things and this blog isn't a giant excuse. I want you to be angry at me when I do horrible things. It'll help me to be less of a bitch.

I find that it's really hard for me to say sorry about something that really hurt someone. I can apologise for accidentally doing something, but I can never make myself actually say it to someone's face even though I am sincerely sorry for my actions.

I almost always edit and over-analyse everything I think before I make it public. That's how I can make myself sound super smart sometimes. But on the rare occasion when I just blurt something out, different consequences occur. Sometimes I blurt out something absolutely hilarious, and others it's just me trying to say some intelligent speech but it coming out all wrong and offensive instead. This can also be seen in some of my blogs. Sometimes I am just so overrun by emotion that the things I write are obnoxious, grammatically incorrect and often way too personal to be sharing over the internet. But sometimes I just need to rant. This blog in someways is a way of me telling my friends what I'm to frightened to tell them in person.

I can list quite a few times all that has happened.

Again, this is no excuse. I know I can be a horrible person, and I can't blame you for thinking worse.

I just want to really sincerely apologise for every stupid, ingorant, obnixious thing I have done to hurt you last year. I could go into the specifics about certain incidents, but I'm too afraid to.

Goodbye.